Let me start by saying I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you the other day. You have been putting up such a good front that I tend to forget the truth sometimes. I thought of forwarding another quotation, something that could provide you a little comfort, but I thought, what the hell, I should just write you a letter, something that you can read when you need a little love…a little comfort.
Love sucks. Let just get that out of the way because right now, that’s the truth. Raw love can blindside you and it’s not so easy to turn off. The raw heartache can be debilitating. I know that. This is why you continue to amaze me. You haven’t resorted to eating Pringles and crying your way through the Notebook and other sappy movies. And except for those “5-second heartache” you probably experience throughout the day, you’ve managed to put on a huge smile and live life and damn anyone who thinks you’re miserable. If you haven’t been painfully honest with me, you could have fooled me as well.
You probably hate the question, “Are you okay?” It forces you to acknowledge the truth to yourself and lie through your teeth. I want you to know, you won’t have to lie to me. I know you’re not okay – and it’s okay. I don’t really care that you think your tears are irrational and that your pain nonsensical. They’re valid. They’re yours. They matter.
I know how much it hurts. I remember how it’s like to get your heart broken. I remember how rejection feels like. I remember how it’s like to feel like you’ve lost your heart..like it had been ripped away by the same person who wanted no part of it. I understand, so I wouldn’t care if it takes you forever to find your peace. I don’t care if you are sad or lost. I will stay up and talk to you until 4 AM…Hell, I’ll stay up with you the whole night if you want me to! The thing is, I’m here for you. No matter what. Please don’t ever think otherwise.
For now, I will tell you he doesn’t deserve you – because he truly doesn’t. He’s an idiot for not seeing you. I will tell you everything will be okay. A year from now, two, three…we will laugh about this. And you will forget. You will forget everything that is causing you so much pain now. Or maybe you won’t. It wouldn’t matter because you would love again and you would be incredibly happy. I know that because in my heart I know you deserve that. You deserve love and happiness. You’ll have those two beautiful girls. Someday, you will.
I love you. I’m sorry you’re in pain. You’ll find peace in time. The hurt would stop eventually. So, take your time. It’s okay.