Erbe, Dragons, and the Confused Wife

Erbe has accused me of not having enough belief in him.

But in my head, I figured that its not about having enough belief but just knowing the limits.

I was wrong. I should have never put limits in my husband's capabilities as God never intended to limit him.

"A wife can give her husband that confidence (just as, hopefully, a husband can for his wife). It's not about being the supportive "little woman." It's about realizing that despite their veneer of confidence, our husbands really do "carry their treasures in fragile containers," and they crave our affirmation for how they did on that play. It's about sending the man we love into the world every day—alive with the belief that he can slay dragons. "

--Now, I understand...

Ba, believe me in my heart I know you can.
Slay more dragons than you could ever realized.
You slay dragons everyday.
You even slayed my dragons.

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remembering the Ex

Yesterday, I was sitting inside the car, holding Ikay, trying to fend off the mosquitoes swarming around us while we waited for Erbe to finish his grocery.

The airconditioning was down and the heat was stifling.

It was dusk... Ikay was asleep and I was looking at her...

and looking and looking...

And suddenly, it struck me, "This little girl is what my life was all about..."

My life cumulates to that moment -- I was a mother and I was holding my little girl.

And my whole 26 years of existence flashed before my eyes and I thought of the EX.
That one EX who made so much of an impact that He was never forgotten -- that I even thought of him on the days preluding my wedding. Because he was just there.

He believed that some people could always be a part of your life. Someone who could be in your past could still be in the future. As if you two are a part of this story. And you're both waiting for the rising action...and ultimately for the climax. As if the things that happened between then and now are just the part of the story.

And I always wondered.

And yesterday while I was looking at Ikay -- I realized that my life was not about any rising actions... It was because precisely of that moment...

When I was sitting inside a car, fending off mosquitoes, waiting for my husband (the love of my life) to arrive with the ingredients for his menudo, watching the dusk turn to night..

...holding my little girl...

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Erbe's amazing patience

This is one of the million reasons I LOVE HIM.

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It made me laugh

Hello!!!

I actually thought that my blog was just being religiously read by two person -- rarye and Bes.

Not even Erbe actually bothers to read it.

So my blasphemies are safe...YET. Until he finally deems it worthy enough to be read.

So whenever people would suddenly say something like, "Nabasa ko sa blog mo."

Surprise! Surprise!

Kuya Vic and Ate Che wrote me a message via Friendster. Kuya Vic actually gave me a sentimental message about Inay when he saw her pic in one of my posts.

It was funny that when I posted my new blog address in friendster, thinking I had to inform those that bothers -- I got more than I bargained for -- more people to actually read my blog.

Thanks for Reading!!!

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I WAS CALLED A BITCH

loser
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

Hello!!!

I looked for my blog via Google and to my surprise it came out and it was because somebody who loves Pacquiao called me a "bitch" for my post on Manny. (Try it by the way, type "piebuko" and you'd come across it)

It was funny. hehe.

What was funny about it? I didn't know somebody reads my blog and that a post of mine could generate that hatred! Damn! I'm freakin' good!

Okay, in fairness, I did a fair number on Manny with that post. I don't hate him! I just had a phase where I was just tired of all the ruckus about him and this "hero" thing. By the way, I did a number on Sara Balabagan there, why didn't anybody react on that? hehe...

Anyways, so that the Manny fan won't hate me anymore. Let me redeem myself in your eyes... the phase where I didn't like Manny is OVAH! You read that? OVER! You see, I saw this clip about Morales and where he says that he'd beat the crap out of Pacquiao to redeem himself. I didn't like that. Na-ah. I still want Manny to beat the crap out of him! Sa pinoy pa rin ako! And this time, I am betting against Rowel that Manny will win. The thing is, Owel is also betting on the same thing. hehe. So, I like Pacquiao again. And if it's any consolation to you, Manny Fan, I was freakin' pregnant and you don't mess with a Pregnant woman's estrogen, though she's a biatch! hehe... I like being called that. dunno...

...I still find it funny that someone besides my friends reads my blog.

But I think I know who that person is... And if he/she is who I think he/she he is...

Geeze!

I have a baby now. Ano ba naman yan! Get a life!

Really!

Fuc#@ng pathetic.

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