Little girls grow up.

I am getting married now..
and somebody wrote this poem for me.
It made me cry.. Thanks Jim!

Jeune Fille
Poem by James Rist

When did she trade tousle head for layered tresses?
When did long fragrant baths begin?
When did sandals and frocks incline to heels and dresses?
When did the girl and the beauty first meet?

All those endless summers of play;
Running and romping--wild like the boys;
Free of care for ruby lips and broken heart….

Loving most her cuddly toys,
And thinking herself too plain to matter,
She disdained signs of the woman’s start.

Still--slowly--the mirror cast its spell,
And revealed enchanting changes--
From gangling fawn to comely gazelle.

Now girl meets woman, as Nature arranges
The young man’s desire for aught than his own
Flurries of passion and lust and slapdash tribute,
For verse and roses and moments with her alone.

But Father tries, dissuade the reckless stranger
Who seeks to capture his treasure,
And Mother counsels the waning girl-child
To practice restraint in some measure.

Then, both release with love the blossom of their seed,
Trading peace for anxious portents of danger.

With banns now sealed and dowry meted,
Treasured youth binds nature’s need.

Still…parents’ love, yet undefeated,
Clings to girl, seen young and free.

Ah! …Pas la mariée --pour tojours, jeune fille!

The last line simply translated means, "...not a wife, but always our little girl!

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Some major babbling!

I don't know if my life is boring or not but Sussette asked me once if I think my life would ever be boring...

I said, "Hmmm...I guess not." You see, I have the knack, no matter how unknowingly, to put myself in such a freakingly complicated situation. Lets just call it, my freeeeeeeakin' talent.

No, I am not jumping off buildings or airplanes.
Nope, I am not even a spy for the CIA. Hell, I want to leave Bin Laden's ass in peace.
Nope, I am not screwing every man I meet nor any man, mind you! (That is the 411 to my sex life!) -- this last sentence will blow erbe's top! What the hell! The way he pissed me off today, I would gladly shaved his hair off his head! That man is without a doubt the most exasperating stubborn man that ever walked the planet! (But that is another story..)

Anyways, if you'd see me I am living a perfectly ordinary existence, but please, can I just get a mundane life. Not forever! Just at least a month or two! The people, who knows me or at least the things happening to me right now, knows what I am blabbing about.

Whatever!

Note: The first 5 paragraphs are not in any way introduction to anything. I am just blabbing. Hehe.

I am just grateful for three things:
1. My bespren Lon has finally texted me. At least that kinda answered THE ultimate question: "I wonder, is he still alive." Apparently he is and is still single, living alone in the jungles of Manila.

2. Rarye is okay and has emailed me. At last! I was wondering when he'd made an effort to do so. He says, he is somewhere in Africa and his next destination would be to this nameless iceberg in Antartica. Apparently, he is going to chip off an entire huge iceberg by himself and export it to Davao to some major halo-halo resto. Bwahahaha! Just kidding rarye! It's fun to invent stories about you though. Hehehe.

3. My bessie is in-loooooooooooooooove! Well, hell! She can deny it to hell and back, twist her panties in a bunch denying that fact, but I do insist! That Joey is a lucky lucky homo sapiens!

4. Pepeng (that's the latest storm, right?) spared my house. I do not have to vacate to my little sister's room and suffer the cobwebs under her table, sneezing my way to Kingdom Come. hehehe.

What makes me sad?
I think I may have lost a friend. I told myself that no matter how much I do not agree on a certain relationship, I would keep my mouth shut, but I guess, I couldn't hold it shut a minute longer and I guess I have hurt her. I just want the best for her and she deserves it. She deserves a man who could hold her hand in the middle of a street, without shame, in bright daylight, and she could be proud to be with him. She deserves that. I guess THE man she is "in-love" with has gotta know that. He is intelligent, right? He should know that LOVE is NOT selfish. If he truly loves her, he should want the best for her. He is NOT what is best for her. Perhaps, in another lifetime, he could be. But not in this lifetime. No siree.

Anyways, what's keepin' me busy?
Erbe.
Why
He is sick.
Again?!
Yep.
Why?
Because he is the most exasperating and stubborn man EVER created! I could gladly wrap my fingers around his neck and shake all his teeth off! I would gladly shaved off all his body hairs! But that is another story. Nothing I intend to put in details here. No-oh Way!

Guess what? If erbe reads this, he'd want me to delete this.

"U-ugh. Wazzat? Delete?!? I can't hear you!!!"

If he can be stubborn, so can I!

And that's the way it is or at least 'til he convinced me otherwise. Hehe.

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I thought I'd give up..

But I did not..
He did.

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I just want to let go

Just fuckin' let go.
But I can't.
Because.
Just because.

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-- baby nene --

kris
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

For folding beds turned magic carpet

for walls turned mountains

for crying with me when I bumped little Richard with a bike

for the pictures u drew on my second grader book

for making christmas and new years memorable even without mama and daddy

for the brunei stories,
the fight with the smelly men on the bus,
escaping to go to bandar,
the cute pakistanis..

for listening to stories of my countless crushes and love stories or just plain stupid stories

for getting angry when i am

for being happy for my victories

for the talks about everything under the sun

for the shared wicked sense of humor that most people would not understand

for the books! yes, the books!

for all little and big things -- countless.

for being the most wonderful little bratty sister in the world whom I love to distraction!

You and I have been there together.

magkasangga ba! :)

I can always count on that.

Love u nene ko!

Happy birthday!!!

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i feel the same..

I wonder if some secrets are meant to be kept.

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I confess

I am guilty. I am sorry.
Ne, 'fess up! :)

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Have you ever waited?

For someone who would not come?

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-- my own loneliness --

These are images from www.postsecret.blogspot.com.
Sometimes these secrets breaks my heart.
Reach out, people!
Someone out there may be just like this.

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Sometimes, I wonder..

What would u say?
Yes, you...
What if I die today.
What would you say about me tomorrow?

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ahem....

Some stories are the same all over, huh?

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--just me--

--just me--
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

well, rarye.. just in case, you are STILL reading my blog.. this is me now..

And I am getting married soon.. hehehe..

I hope you'd be there..
..because I was not..
you know what I mean..

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slippers

slippers
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

barely discernible pic..

I am a lover of slippers.
A Certified Freakin' lover of Slippers.

Even way back in College, rarye would comment on my going to class wearing slippers -- PANGBANYONG TSINELAS, mind you.

And guess what?

I haven't changed.

I still go to my law classes wearing slippers.

I remember, an ex once bought me, a pasalubong from manila, a pair of slippers, which although was quite pretty, just did not fit right.

Now, baba bought me this.

And it fits just right.

I guess it speaks so much of how right He is for me... No offense to the ex. hehehe.. :)

And if you have some problem about me blogging my freaking slippers, well, magkulangot ka na lang!

hehehe..

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The art of NOT keeping Secrets

I am a keeper of secrets, or rather, an unworthy keeper of secrets. Really, really unworthy, because I can't keep it to myself... so, I bombard Erbe with all these secrets I have been told.

Sometimes, I wonder why people keep telling me their secrets but would complain about my sheer inability to keep them.

I have realized that people I know from the time I haven't even freakin' menstruated yet have their stories to tell..

Damn freakingly good juicy stories.

I listen and I sit, gaping..

PAUNA PO KAY ERBE: I AM NOT GOING TO ERASE THIS NO MATTER HOW YOU FROWN AND RANT!!! YOU ARE WAY MORE STRICT THAN THE FREAKIN' MTRCB!!!!

Anyways, read on and read their secrets:

One..
Has gotten married secretly without the parents knowing about it.

Admits that one is very noisy when having sex.

Has a relationship with a married person and cannot stop being with the person.

Is married but is in-love with a single person who is in-love with two people, while flirting with more.

Is in-love with a man but cannot tell her parents, afraid of their disapproval.

Is married but the person one is married to had a number of relationships with serious "consequences", and this one is getting back at the spouse.

Has gotten married but is secretly not in-love with the spouse, just got married for gainful reasons on this one's part and the spouse is oblivious to this.

Is with a partner but crying over the last, still.. while the partner does not know, the ex does not believe.

Is practically living with a partner while one's parents is completely oblivious to it, or so I still think.

Likes to view "anatomies" of others on webcam, but one is married.

Has participated in an orgy, a full orgy, about 12 of them all in all.


There is more. I will not tell anymore.

I have not divulged any names.. and I will never will. Now, can you imagine all the secrets that I am keeping?!?!?

I am not judging anybody -- because I, too, have my own secrets.. more even, some damaging to my soul. (Teka.. on the second thought.. wala naman super damaging..hehehe)

The thing is, I have realized that you might know a person all your life but you'd never really truly know a person --
Because people bends according to how fate takes them..
They have no choice on this matter because it is how life is.
So then they simply surprises you..
With their secrets and more..

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--- bestfriend ko ---

Well, I gotta give her credit for this pic. She is really pretty here and I gotta share this to all who reads my blog and has the "irrevocable" crush on my bessie.

Erbe, actually, is doubting my sexual preference, and actually accused me of being a freakin' homo. hehehe..

Well, am I or am I not?

What do you think baba? hmmm...

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-- para sa wala nung fiesta ---

-- these are merely thumbnail pixs... di kasi kasya yung malaki ---

Sabi, there is no place like home.. ANG SABI!!!

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Labuyo..awwww shiiiiiiit!

I have noticed that I have people reading my posts, although I am completely baffled as to who and why.. Hell, this is all about my crap. So, if you're reading this, please leave a message.

Anyways, I am currently waiting for Erbe to finish his work.. so, this entry is just an incessant rambling of a scatterbrain. amen.

It's freakin' raining again. This worries me.

For the past week, our house is damn flooded.

Sometimes up to my ankle,
up to my knees,
up to my neck. -- this last one as you could imagine is my exaggeration.

Anyways, it is flooded.

Thank you Labuyo.

I live in a place where floods are as natural as breathing. In fact, in our house, we have finally managed to have a system for flood-attack. I have survived a number of floods -- but this last one sucks!

Why?

Oh, it's no biggie really. It just happened that it was the damn fiesta when the freakin' flood decided to happily visit every nooks of our house.

We celebrated the fiesta with damn-up-to-my-ass water inside the house.

You could just imagine:
Visitor: "Manay Iday! Maray na fiesta po!"
Me: "Dagus po, tulay tulay na po kamo dian. O baka po mahulog kamo! Dagus po, makitaas po kang bitis nindo sa tukawan ta baka alipungahun kamo! Uya po, o pritos na galunggong! Pasensia na po ta dai kami nakaluto, si lutuan po kaya naanod kang baha, pati naman po si dapug-dapug mi..."
Hehehe..

You could just imagine.

Anyways, there goes my rambling..

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To My sanity's shelter

I think a friend of mine has gotten married..

My friend told me the last time we talked that the plans were there -- marriage.

My friend called a few days before the Big day.

I haven't heard from my friend since then.

I saw a picture and I think the plans were pushed through.

I know my friend would have wanted another story..
I know my friend's heart probably belonged to someone else..
I know though that some things need to be done.

I pray that if I am right, wherever you, whoever you're with...
I pray that there's a part of you, even a little, which is at peace with "it".

I understand what needs to be done.
I just pray that you are happy.

You know who you are..

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Puchang buhay to!

When I was in elementary, there were three things I liked to do:
1. Play "agawan base" with my friends versus the grade 5 boys.
2. Hang out with the "Strikers". Sue me! That was our name! Blame it on Meilen.
3. Watched Batibot.

Worries: None… Oh yeah! Failing my Chinese subject was a constant worry.

That was it!

When I was in High School, there were four things I liked to do:
1. Stalk out my crushes..hehehe.. (FYI: I made lots of enemy with one crush I had)
2. Hang out with the Strikers - Che, Tin, Nette, Lala, Mia, and I.
3. Watched Power Rangers on the tube.

Worries:
1. Failing Math and Science subjects.
2. "Bugay! Nalingawan ko na naman magpadentista! " – I was supposed to report for braces tightening.

TRIVIA: I wore freakin' braces from the time I was 13-years-old to until I was 21!

When I was in college my interests were:
1. Hanging out/cutting classes with Tin, Gui, and Setay.
2. SJF
3. The existence/nonexistence love life.

But I guess my worries were a little bit more serious. .
1. I was worried about Boinx getting drunk AGAIN and going to class drunk!
2. I questioned my faith – my religion.
3. Mga tanong sa pagbubuntis, PMS, pag-inom, at sigarilyo – not that I ever took up the habits.
4. I had intertwining love-life with Bessie!
5. He likes me/He likes me NOT! Most of the time NOT!

Pero ngayon naman, I have these interests:
1. Sweldo.
2. Magnegosyo kami ni E.
3. Law books.
4. Work.
5. Getting married bago ma-ANGOT!
6. Pinoy Big Brother! Hahaha! O another? ! JOLOGS na kung JOLOGS!

My worries:
1. Cycles of Mr. Ursua. -- lam nia na kung sino sia.. URSUA!
2. Na di na naman magswesweldo ang opisina!

NOTE: With all due respect, akala ko po ba bago magtraslacion may sweldo na! Eh, bad trip naman! Last month pang-sweldo ko yun ah! Magkikinsenas na naman!

3. Kung bagsak ako sa Tax 1 at di makakapag-graduate!
4. Kung matatangal si Uma at Nene – my favorites!

Eh, bale yan lang naman..
I was just thinking of an entry na bagay sa swaying tree na nakapost sa taas..

Saka bale, yung.. la pa ring sweldo.. kaya nanawagan sa lahat ng pinagkakautangan ko:
1. Tinay
2. Oying
3. Bobet
4. Tin-tin
5. Sussette
6. Jason
7. Pipo
8. Tikya
9. Isagani
10. Emie – P20 ata di ba?

Pwede ba, eto o sainyo na ang kaluluwa ko! Hehehe..

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The truth freakin' hurts.

sometimes.. it gets too exhausting for words..
you know how it is, right?
When u just want to let go.. u know...
Just. Let. Go.
But then when it comes down to it, you just can't.
Because although sometimes it drains every freakin' emotion from you, every thought..
It still remains what it is -- something wonderful. still. always.
So u hold on.
Tight.
Because it is worth it.
Like I am holding on.
So so tightly.
:)

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Battle of the Dating Services

Do you know what is better than getting mad when you're furious?

Getting EVEN!

One day I was busily checking out Erbe's email.. (Sue me! He does that with mine as well!) Anyways, I was checkin' them out when I noticed an email from LoveHappens.com..

Hmm.. a dating service..

Apparently, Erbe has joined this service way before we got hooked up together.. Sue me again, but I opened the damn thing. Being actually curious as to how many women/girls would dig my fiancee, I decided to post a picture of him.

Later, I checked it out with Erbe... Damn! A Lot of Women actually did liked him! A lot of Women actually have great taste! Hehehe.. Shucks! Many responded and was sending Erbe an icebreaker.. I guess this was very good indeed for my freakin' fiancee's ego, that he actually got quite busy completing his stagnant profile and checkin' out women..

I raised my eyebrow at that but I forgave him.

Although, I gotta admit it irked the hell outtame.

As weeks go by, I watched him opened his account, checking out women after women after women.. and actually sending them icebreakers..



The "irked" turned irritated..

Until I was simmering..

But what actually pushed me to my limits was when I found out that he actually sent requests to his sister and a friend to write a recommendation for him! As-freakin'-IF?!?

That does it!

Now, I happened to know that there is a site called Filipinaheart.com where foreigners check out Filipina women! My sister in her quest for "the guy" has joined this blasted thing. No, my sister is not old, fat, nasty smelling, or downright desperate! She is actually pretty, in fact, but she just enjoys being checked out and actually liked by these guys. Chalked it up to women's ego.



And so to get even, I signed up to Lalalaland of foreigners! Pick me up Joe!

So what is my dingdong of a fiancee up to now?

Knowing how I have this incredible fascination for foreigners (Thanks to Mills & Boons and Harlequins 101), he panicked!

Well, he wants me to compromise. He wants me to choose between this:
1. He is going to erase his LoveHappens account and I am going decease from pursuing my revenge.
2. We are going to still enjoy the damn thing as long as we don’t act on it. Yeah sure! When the hell freezes over!

Did I choose? compromise? Hell no! Of course, I'm enjoying getting even! Serves him right!



NOTE: If you happen to see my picture in Filipinaheart, have mercy on me! Do not forsake me! I am merely getting revenge!

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sugar

sugar
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this..

I am happy for you..

Have a wonderful, wonderful journey..

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Freakin' Weddings!

Weddings!

Before Erbe came to my life I NEVER actually thought of marrying anybody, or wanting to get married. Yeah sure, there were those I was with and I thought, "Maybe.." But there was never this: "I gotta marry u NOW!" feeling.

In fact, before Erbe came, I wanted to get married when I would be like 35. Yep, u freakin' read it right, 3-5! 35, ladies and gentleman 35! And I was even considering moving it to the big 4-0! Well, that is if my biological clock would not be ringing rather crazily by that time, of course.

Now, I am bloody 25… And I am attending weddings one after another, and learning of friends, classmates, acquaintances who are all getting married!

Note: I just attended one yesterday..Congratulations to Sugar and Eugene! Have a wonderful journey! Sugs, I'm glad u finally found forever..

OK. U GOT ME! I confessed! The marriage syndrome is getting to me.. I am afflicted with it.. Sometimes, I want to really badly get married ASAP. Loving Erbe crazily doesn't help much with abating the feeling, that has become a freakin' bloody need. Need, mind you! Not want, f*@#ng NEED! (Ba, forgive the curse, I will not delete that no matter how much u frown at me!)

Anyways, my wonderful Mama and I have an agreement, I can ONLY get married after I take the Bar exam and not any sooner. *sigh.. I plan to stick by it. If only I am sure that I'd definitely take the bar next year.. What if I get scared shit?!?! Well, at least I gotta stick with my 3-5 plan or even the 4-0 scheme! Hehe..



SM? Wuzat? Oh, you think I could get a civil wedding secretly?

Note: A friend of mine has done that. Congratulations to Mrs. KL!

I kinda think it's immature. Really! It is. I don't understand that. My family loves Erbe and are very supportive of us. I don't think there's any need to surreptitiously get married! Besides, Erbe, being an OOOOOOLD man wouldn't want to do any secret marriage stuffs..Although, I gotta admit, we are greatly tempted. Celibacy is a very difficult thing! Hahaha! (Note to Ba: I am NOT going to erase that either!)

Anyways, if there were plans, they have been greatly thwarted by this story:

While in Nene's capping ceremony..

Eden ( a cousin): "Ate, sinabi ko kay Mama (my aunt) na kasal na kamo ni Erbe"
I just shrugged and smiled, not thinking of it as any big-a-deal.

While we were having this conversation, apparently another conversation is taking place..
Auntie: "Day, kasal na plan si Tere..yada..yada..yada"
Mama was stunned.
Mama: "Sabi man ni isay?"
My aunt explained, continuing her gullibility and goading Mama until my poor Mother was completely enraged. Her blood pressure going 300/200! Hehehe..

Anyways, I was still unaware of it all happening.

Later..

Mama: "Nene (My sister), kamo plan tigpaparaloko nindo ako! Kasal na plan si ate mo, tinatago nindo sako!.. yada..yada..yada.. Mga TRAYDOR! PAPALAYASON ko na yan!

Nene was outraged as well, entirely oblivious to the whole thing. She dragged my cousin (Eden) who started it all, who by that time she finished explaining to my still furious mother the whole thing was shaking down to her itty-little-bitty toes! Hah. Serves her right!

Mama and I talked afterwards and I was able to convince her that she could search the entire database of the Civil Registrars of the whole planet and she wouldn't be able to find any evidence of the freakin' imaginary wedding! Hah.

But at least that cures any wayward thought of getting married via SM! Who would want to after that incident?! Would u?!

Weddings! Hmp.

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Men's insensitivity and Women's vanity

aa4
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

I am a self-confessed lover of vintage clothes.. otherwise knows as UKAY!

I derive great satisfaction from buying something nice for P50! or even P35! I do!

NOTE: I know a place which sells clothes at P35, but u wouldn't know it was that cheap!

So being that kindagirl.. It is a really big deal for me to buy something, costing me P700!

Which I did.

I happened to see something in this catalog and i bought it.

But of course, i would want Erbe to see me in it!

Anyways, that day i was wearing the "thing" and i was really feelin' quite good..

I had an exam and i told Erbe to meet me at 7:30 in the evening..

Lately, he has been making me wait because of something which I cannot tell u due to his command.

Anyways, there i was in my new clothes and i was waiting..
...2 minutes passed..
I texted, "Wer ka na?"
...5 minutes..
I was getting irritated..
..10 minutes..
I was texting unmentionables stuff..
..15 minutes..
I was freaking furious.
..30 minutes..
I was out, walking furiously, muttering to myself, cursing, texting him.
Yet no response.
I was like halfway to my ride when I stopped.
And thought, "he hasn't seen my tee!"
Blame it on woman's vanity.
I turned around, cursing myself, i went back.
I started texting again..and again started waiting, simmering in complete anger.. Yet i had to let him see me in my tee!
After......................... 55 minutes..
He was there finally.
And i started to wait for him to comment on the freakin' tee.. and waited and waited...
When we were walking home..
HE said.. pause.. I held my breath..
"Oi, ok baga bado mo."
That was about it. I couldn't believe it. After all I went through!!! I wanted to bloody kill him. But well, what can you do?!
*sigh
Men!

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Mama strikes again

i love telling stories about my mama..
i can't help it...
mama can win "FUNNIEST MAMA OF THE YEAR" award or the "WEIRDEST MAMA OF THE YEAR" award hands down!

So what has she been up to??

The other week, she lost the Original Certificate of Title of the jeep..

Mama has this way of getting awfully distracted and losing track of things including where things are..

Daddy usually shouts and gets mad about two things:
1. How Mama can find a million things to do a minute before they are supposed to leave the house, which leaves him screaming her name over and over again while Mama would move even more slowly..
2. Mama's gift of losing something she was just a holding a second ago.



So, there she was looking for the OTC. It was rather imperative that she finds it otherwise they would still have to go to Legaspi for another OTC, which would be a great hassle for Daddy's hectic life.

Now, she has been searching for two days and couldn't find it. As you could imagine Daddy couldn't help stop reprimanding Mama..

Until she found it.

Inside her bag, where she didn't look for that whole two days.

And she couldn't tell Daddy that, could she?

So she decided to tell Daddy she found it in his bag.

And for two days reprimanded Daddy about his supposed tendencies to take things and lose them!

Daddy can't imagine how the damn thing got into his bag, but closed his mouth while she kept making him guilty for scolding her for losing the OTC!

And when she finally got tired of making him feel guilty.

She told me what she did, laughing all the while!

Did she tell him the truth?

What do u think?!

OF COURSE NOT!

She still gives him hell every now and then about the OTC!

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TresMarias

kami
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

It all started when we became officers of pschology classes..

Suddenly we were friends..

We had such a blast that semester - the three of us..

Gui, who was having an identity crisis at the same time,just couldn't figure out what course she wanted. She had a life before us.. hehehe..Partying all the time,which always infuriated Bes and me.

Tin,who was one of the campus crushes.. I need not expound.

And then there is me.

We had fun. Lots of it.

We were cutting classes all the time.

We were watching movies.

Sleeping over.

Until we all failed accounting 101.

Then tin and I stopped having fun..

But gui? Gui will have fun until the world stops turning.. She's just like that..You see, sometimes I think, no matter how much she wanted to give up before, she just loves life too much..

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soulmates..

seti
Originally uploaded by Silhoutte.

i believe that soulmates do not come the way it has always been believed so..
i believe soulmates are two people who knows truly how the other heart beats..
how the thoughts are lined before they even are..
and finally, what the soul is praying even when not said..
That's me and settie.
Soulmates.

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The Curse -- as Usual!

Have you ever had one of those days? You know.. when everything seems to be going really really horribly wrong?

I have had those days for the last two weeks. I have been trying to keep it together.. stay tough. But sometimes, i just want to bloody scream my head off and cry like a pathetic banshee.

And you know what's worst?

When you're mistaken for a homosexual!

Those are one of the curses of being tall.

I have had that for years when people would stare at me in awe.. They'd think, "Man! She's tall! She's really tall!" (Never mind the comment: Dakulaon talaga ano?)

I'm bloody 5'8" Not the freaking Eiffel Tower! Goddamned it!

But there they are amazed, and then the next thought would follow, "Perhaps, she's a man.. She's GAY!" Geeze!!!

One night, I was walking while the rain was pouring down, and i had my umbrella pretty close to my face, and i heard someone commented, "Garo man lang talaga babae ano?!"

Bloody hell!

If that doesn't beat all! Imagine?! Being thought of as a man looking quite like a real woman!

Didn't it occured to him that I was genuine?!

Hell no! It's the freakin' height, i tell you! It's always the bloody freakin' height!!!

Why are you laughing?

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Drools and more drools

For the longest time, i have drooled over Brad Pitt. Now, sue me for being just like every other woman in the world, drooling over him, but he sure is "delectable". A feast for the eyes! It's funny though that when I watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith, I barely noticed he is there.. I was drooling over Angelina Jolie. Damn! That woman really is somethin' else! Tan-tan (a classmate) though hated the film for the lack of exposure of Ms. Jolie's delicious fanny and everythin' else. Hehehe.

Anyways, as local actor goes.. I drool over Jericho Rosales! Really, He is a walkin-talkin' "sex-appeal-turned-man". He is! To prove this, I present my mother to you:

Fact 1. My mama sneers over the thought of watching movies with actors whose ages range from 28 and below. "Ano ko teenager?!", she would say. Albeit, she watches movies starring her favorite soap opera stars. And if we were able to drag her to the moviehouse, she'd freakin' sleep and snore throughout the movie. The other week though, she and my sister watched that movie, with Jericho, Claudine, and Piolo (the freakin perpetually hangin in the closet guy)..and Mama watched the whole thing! All the while, staring at Jericho, nudging my sister, telling her, "Gwapuhon talaga ano?" hehehe!

Fact 2. My mama is like 56 years old. So, if she'd dream of any stars, it would be like Tirso Cruz or Boyet, right? But guess what? Mama dreamt she was Jericho Rosales' partner in some freakin' movie or soap! She told us the next day, shaking her head over the whole thing sheepishly, while my sister and I was laughing over the whole thing! Hilarious!

Conclusion: Jericho Rosales is hot.

I rest my case.

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The irony

See this guy? He is an old man, an old blind man, who earns his way through life by jamming by the Robertson Department Store. Basically everyday he earns like, what? 50 bucks (if he is lucky) for a day.

But my Daddy is a cruel, cruel man. He once told me that this guy is the leader of a syndicate. He accuses this man of forcing the streetchildren to beg for him! Forgive my Daddy, he is a very imaginative man. Daddy talaga o!

La lang, i just find the thought funny. So gotta share it!

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all about love

Have you ever loved someone?

You know, really really loved that person?

I have, geeze! so many freakin' times, I'd imagine! It has even become a running joke to Rarye.. the guyFRIENDs.

Back then, I was this idealistic-fairy-tale-kind-a-girl. And I thought I already knew all about it.. Then I got my heart broken..
Then somebody came along, and then I thought, "Now, I think I know much better!"
And then the ass broke my heart, then another ass broke my heart. Freakin' assHoles! Until i hated all those friggin-worthless-asses.

So there I was living my life, free of assess..When one day, He comes along. Quite unexpectedly, I'd say. Then I finally learned that what I knew about love was all worth diddly-freakin-squat!

Because I finally learned all about LOVE.

LOVE is a lot of things. Sometimes, it's sacrifice.

It's about holding back your tears when your tears would hurt him more.
It's about giving him the fried chicken when he wants it.
It's about patience, the ability to understand than to be angry.
It's about commitment, that no matter what curveballs fate throws at you both, you stay.
It is the ability to say "I am sorry, I was wrong"
and it comes with the heart that can say, "I forgive you."

Love comes with the knowledge that you still have a lot to learn. But you want to learn until you have left are memories and a couple of tooth.

Best of all, it teaches you so much about yourself,
that you suddenly want to be a better person..

Mama said I am learning. I guess I am. Baba taught me so much of loving. I guess it's because he has the heart that knows how to give it. And for that I am the luckiest girl in the world.

It's weird though.. Sometimes, I am amazed at how Love becomes you, the person becomes you.. that you think of him first before yourself, but still you are your own person..

And although you live, sometimes, you take your next breath because he does.

Wala lang.. baba is just sick kaya I am not doing so well.. kaya naging senti.

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The New PRIEST -- I gotta share this!

A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done.
The monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. If I start to get nervious I take a sip."

So the next Sunday he took the monsignor's advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink.

He proceeded to talk up a storm. Upon return to his office after mass he found the following note on his door:



1) Sip the Vodka, don't gulp.

2) There are 10 commandments, not 12.

3) There are 12 disciples, not 10.

4) Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.

5) Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.

6) We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J.C.

7) The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior, and Spook.

8) David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.

9) When David was hit by a rock and knocked off his donkey, don't say he was stoned off his ass.

10) We do not refer to the cross as the Big T!

11) When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this and eat it, for it is my body", he did not say, "Eat me."

12) The Virgin Mary is not referred to as the, "Mary with the Cherry".

13) The recommended grace before a meal is not: "Rub-A-dub-dub, thanks for the grub, yeah God"

14) Don't refer to Jesus and the 12 disciples, as J.C. and the boys

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Is this getting to be a habit?

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Being a law student, I cannot help but be updated on the latest ondits on the country’s political crap. There is the looming threat of the possible Parliamentary government. Which I personally think would be better for this country with voters who’d go for the person who made a lot of box-office movie or to those who made the most number of hoops sa PBA. During elections, when I learn that this movie star is on the top, I would just love to have all those stupid voters fall in line so I could smack them. Morons! Pero ano pa nga ba? Mareng Susan is right, every Filipino has a right to his one vote.

Anyways, I still think Parliamentary government would do us well. Sana nga lang, the change would be implemented AFTER I take the bar.

Now, one of the political craps I hate though is the “possible” Edsa. UGH?! The word Edsa has become nauseous to me. I heard that it is being questioned as being a “habit”. Ayaw sa presidente, eh di mag-Edsa! Think about it! It’s like the word Diva. Every freakin’ singer is a freakin’ Diva. Ang Edsa it’s becoming a series of Rambo, or Mighty Ducks, or Batman (the series), o series ng Sponge Bob na walang katapusan! Jesus H. Christ!

I admit, I envy my parents for their vast knowledge and full awareness of Edsa I, and that was rightly so. Edsa II? Well, it was fine with me. I wanted to be there in fact.. But then there was this pathetic attempt of a revolution, even more pathetically dubbed as Edsa 3! Geeze! And Now there is a clamor for Edsa 4! See parang Sponge Bob 4?!?!

My solution: Legal method of ousting the president in accordance with the constitution. Kaya nga nandian yan eh, the “lengthy and talkative Constitution”. Note: Have you ever read the whole freaking blabbing thing in its entirety?! Freakin’ Talk-a-tive talaga!

Anyways, yan lang naman ang opinion ng law student. Naks! If you don’t agree, sue me! Or better yet, eh di mag-Edsa ka mag-isa mo! Panget!

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peter pan and shoti

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i just have to post this! aren't they adorable? I love them!

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I hate my height! Anybody want some inch?

Again, this is how people here are.. dwarfs!!! bunch of freakin dwarfs! Most men are anyways.

I had the "dakulaon" experience again. I cannot reiterate enough how much i hate, abhor, loathe the word.. especially if it comes with snickers and pure witless comments. AAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!

Let me outta here! God! i can't wait for the day when my height would look normal.

CAn this really be normal??



Probably not huh?

*sigh

Anyways, There is a friend far-away, whom I really miss.. You know who u are! I will prepare an entry and pics especially for you...wherever u are..

NOTE: If the movies have MTRCB, I have Erbe. How can my literary juices flow when He edits, corrects, and pouts when he reads cursed words, or words like penis, vagina or fuck on my blog. Tell me people! Tell me! I told him so that we would avoid the quarrel, buti pa wag na lang siang magbasa, right? Anyways, i love the guy, so I adhere to his wishes. But what is worong with the word PENIS, tell me?!

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nene2

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And this was my little brother.. now, my little sister..
GAze at the marvel of science!!!!
hahahaha!
TAcy! mag-isip ka! lalaki yan!
lab u nene! just kiddin'

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me and bes

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This is my bestfriend.. malabo pero she's awfully pretty.. ulitin ko, IF I HAVE A PENIS, I'D MARRY HER! The thing is she deserves someone who'd make her feel really special.. the kind of person who truly deserves her. Pwede kaya si Prince William? hehehe..

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Da Vinci Code

I have read the book.

The thing is everybody who ever read anything that has more than a thousand page in his life read this book.

I had this thing about not doing what everyone wants to do. So I was fairly adamant that I would not read the friggin' book.

Until one day my sister came home with it, read it overnight, and the next day, gushed over its merits.

My Daddy though took the book and read it for about four days, with me peering over his shoulder, demanding that he finished it ASAP!

But when I finally I had it, I waited about two days before reading it, sabi kasi ni Kris, "Once you start, you can't stop." Eh, I was busy with all my school stuffs. Ehem, 4th year na po kasi, Bar review na. hehehe.

So, one night, I started reading it. I started at about 12 in the morning, and couldn't put down the freaking book. Because it started with this bizarre murder and this even more bizarre picture of a man arranging himself in the Vitruvian Man position, silly scared chicken shit that I am, I arranged myself under my sheets, reading it! And even more silly scared chicken shit that I am, I couldn't sleep, when i finally decided to give in to my boooody's demands, though my eyes were very heavy.. I was able to sleep at 4 in the morning! When I woke up, walang toothbrush o hilamos, I finished the book, and came out of the room at 1 in the afternoon!

Now, do you know what I am doing?

I am researching the freakin' facts! I find myself staring at the Last Supper painting or a replica of it hanging on our dining room's wall. I find myself staring at the Mona Lisa in the net while at work. I think and stare and discuss to anyone every single interesting facts! i am a walking freakin' Da Vinci Code Rewind Machine.

Yun nga, i find myself researching on things, and sometimes, I'd raised my eyebrow, sabi ko, "Pucha! Baka gusto man lang ni Da Vinci nakasmile si mona lisa arug kian, so what's the big fuss?!" Why create a mystery when perhaps there is none!

One thing is for sure though, I would always think of the Eiffel Tower as one big phallus. --> huh?! o san yan galing? anong connect?!?

Malayo ang napulot ko sa religious discussions ng book ano? Kanya-kanyang trip lang! hahaha!

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gypsy

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Benta ko kapatid ko oh, piso lang! pangit naman eh! Tacy o! saimo salapi lang!

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Report: Sheer stupidity or Tough Luck

i have a talent.
a talent to do what seems to be weird and off.
and i am the clumsiest person in the planet.

Proof 1
i singlehandedly made an ass out of myself, when i fell down the stairs rolling from the 3rd floor to the 2nd floor, while everyone from the top floor were all watching me roll! This was in my university. Talk about "How-was-your-first-day-at-school-honey experiences".

My life is series of accidents.. even my friends, especially settie, avoids my parameters.. i am a walking accident.

Let me give you the latest proofs..

Proof 2i
I was able to suffer a first degree burn by ironing my armpits! Do u know of anyone who has this talent, ironing her freaking armpits?! Na-ah! If da Vinci could create mona lisa, i could very well burn my armpits, i figure.. :)

and last but not the least..

Proof 3
In my clumsiness, today, i cut my thumb, creating 4 deep cuts.. I couldn't find the stupid can opener, so i had to settle to opening the freakin' can with a knife, and thereby in accordance with my stupidity and my talent to hurt myself, i cut myself! Geeze..

Pretty soon, I will endeavor to kill myself with sheer stupidity. Perhaps, i could come back as some freakin' ghost and write that story, but accident prone that i am, my ghost would probably have some sad misfortune as well!

Anyways:



i would like aLL YE people to know this. This blog is mine. I write my opinions, my life, basically, and everything i want to write regardless of the truth or not. So don't take this as the next prophet's message. If you want to read, just read this, damn it! Don't go out and tell people "my truth". Like for instance, if i pair Pipo and Tinay, i just want to! That doesn't mean that they are indeed paired already! If you think, you have problems with what I am writing, then don't read! i am not forcing you to! Don't come on me like it's my fault my blog upsets you! Geeze!

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baba

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Baba,
Pagpasensyahan mo na ang kapalpakan ko minsan.. most of the time..
Tendency ko magwala..
Impatience ko..
Immaturities ko..
Sa gabos na pangiinsulto ko, miski di ko tuyo.
Sa gabos na kasusupgan na naidulot ko saimo.
Kala lugod ninda under taka, eh sa totoo pagika nagtaram mayo naman akong masabi.
Mas stubborn ka pa sa damulag paghabo mag-araro!
Nabasa nindo? Dai ko ni UNDER. Padangat lang talaga ako. Ako man si abuso!
Ako ang mayong magibo pagnagtaram na iniyo!

Baba,
Salamat..
Sa pagigi mong mabooton..
Sa pagigi mong mapasensyahon..
Sa pagigi mong maray sako saka sa gabos na importante sako..
Sa pagpadangat na mayong kapantay miski kiisay..
Kung may ex akong nagbabasa kani, nabasa mo?!?! MAYO KA DIGDING SINABI!!!


Baba,
Mayo man..
Gusto kong maaraman mo..
ika ang buhay ko.

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Bessie went home

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this is Since I haven't seen her for about 10 months.. I again am at awe with her beauty. No homosexual tendencies though.

But damn! She is fine!

She is! She is! You just wouldn't see it in her pics… She has this tendency to make faces and inadvertently looks like an idiot. Hehehe..

Anyways, She got me five GIFTS, including the fine necklace..

Note: Wag magtampo ang iba, kung kilala niyo ako, alam niyo how demanding I am. I demanded it from her.

So what are the others, let me see?
1. The necklace. That is given.
2. Shades.
3. A CD of her fave artist in Nuzi (my pet name for New Zealand)
4. A book of photographs.
5. A diary.
And of course, my cho-co-la-tes!

Anyways, we spent one night in Eco village, where we had a blast. We rented this cabin which basically cost us P1,090. It was made of can.. Really! We were all there, the seven of us, all packed like sardines. But it was okay.

What happened?
Facts:
1. Basted na agad si Bobet ni bes..
2. I think pipo and tinay are getting a little bit more closer.. Wish ko lang! pero true! True!
3. Pipo and Tinay slept together.
4. Shoti and Bes slept together.
5. We all slept together.
6. Gui came late and slept with Jaja and Aye in their cheaper "can".
7. We had a blast.

Thanks Bessie for the treat! Loves you!

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me and ba

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taking pix inside the cabin.. before swimming..

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