I am feeling...harassed. I did not make the quota. No bonus for me. *sigh.Sad.Relieved. For many reasons.Melancholic.Happy. Erbe is home.Irritated. With myself. Confused.Basically screwed ...
Aug 31, 2008
Emotional Roller Coaster Ride
This has been a happy (slash) sad day.I spent the whole afternoon chatting with two of my bestfriends, Tin and Set, and well, we talked about "confessions". It was nice. It's always nice to giggle with those two. We never have kept secrets -- well, I have never kept secrets from them -- so we always have such a blast shocking each other with our little secrets.Bessie beat me though. Hands down. I was and still am kinda melancholic. I miss Erbe. He went out of town for the weekend. I woke up this afternoon and the first thing that entered my mind...
Drowning
We all have been given our little places.We may not like it but we have to learn how to deal. So, we close our eyes and we pretend.We sometimes question, but we close our ears... drowning the questions to oblivion. We don't want to truly face the truth. We like to rationalize things and pretend that we are doing well.Still, there's always that little flicker of doubt... that nagging question that just wouldn't go away.And then something or someone happens that reinforces the doubts and the questions.But we know we're stuck. So regardless of...
Aug 29, 2008
Falling Slowly from Once
I saw Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova performed this at the Oscars. I fell in love with the song. I forgot about it until I watched the movie "Once". It's a great movie with a beautiful story. The ending is just apt. Sad, but apt.Anyway, here is the song... enjoy! They won the Oscars for this one.Falling SlowlyI don't know youBut I want youAll the more for thatWords fall through meAnd always fool meAnd I can't reactAnd games that never amountTo...
Aug 24, 2008
Batang Kalabaw
Earlier, I was complaining to Erbe about how bored I am with my job. I was complaining until I saw the documentary featured in GMA 7. The documentary focused on 13 children ages ranging from 6 to 13.In the mountains of Agusan del Sur, entire communities make a living off illegallogging. The adults cut down trees while some of their children carry the logsdown the mountainside. Some as young as six years old do this back-breakingwork, trekking up to four hours a day to bring logs down to the valley, whereeager buyers await. Jay Taruc documents...
Aug 22, 2008
Insomnia -- I like It for 3 Reasons
I like being awake at night when everybody else is asleep because 1. I work better when there are no distractions. No noisy Paige, nagging Erbe and great soaps.2. I like the feeling -- it's like I'm the only person left in the world. It is a time for MYSELF.3. I worry about fires, burglars and homicidal maniacs. I like to feel that I'm protecting everyone else. Fires can breakout and I'll know. Burglars and homicidal maniacs can come in and I'll be ready with something to club them wi...
Aug 15, 2008
Tin Alano - For Her Fans
I am used to having people trying to get to my bestfriend through me. Well, that's just fine. One calls her his soulmate, another his true love, and so on.My bestfriend is really, really pretty...She's not perfect, but there's something about her that just attracts people.Hell! Two of my exes were in-love with her.My husband even had a crush on her!Three of my cousins had a crush on her as well.All of my male friends were and are infatuated with...
Paige Finally Told Me
Earlier this evening, Erbe and I were talking about Annie. When suddenly, Paige said, "Yampaling"* I was surprised and I turned to her and saw her holding her left cheek and then she said it again, "Yampaling."I then asked, "Sisay baby? Yampaling ka? nisay?"**Her answer caught me by surprise, "Annie... yampaling." She said this while holding her left cheek.Erbe and I looked at each other and so I held her and said that I was so sorry that she was hurt. I told her that Annie was bad and that she's gone. I promised my daughter no one will harm...
Aug 13, 2008
Evil Resided in My House
You can never really be too careful when it comes to your kids. Horrible things could happen to them right under your nose.I feel so bad right now. I feel so guilty. I have a bad case of migraine. I just feel like the most horrible mother for trusting Paige to that insipid, stupid, cruel, cruel person.Yesterday evening, Erbe and my mother commented that Annie, Paige's yaya, was really harsh. They told me that they often hear her shouting at Paige. Now, this person is a manipulative bitch. Whenever I'm around, she's all sweetness to my daughter...
Erbe! Psst!
In the middle of the night..."E-bi! E-bi!""psst!""Oi! E-bi!""Ma-mam!"Getting louder..."E-bi!""Oi! E-bi!""Ma-mam!"and louder and louder and louder.What was that?Well, that was Paige.Interpretation --"Erbe! Erbe!""Psst!""Oi! Erbe""Ma-mam" (referring to her bottle of milk)Yes, she really did say, "Psst!" and "Oi!"And she only calls her papa, "Erbe", every time she's demanding her bottle of milk from him.Erbe will usually just laugh it off. He loves everything she do...
Aug 12, 2008
Looking for a Penpal
People who are closest to me know that I wanted to marry a foreigner. I wanted babies like my niece, Cori. Well, that didn't happen, but that's ok since I have Erbe. Besides, I have Cori.Earlier I was looking for the Tagbilaran Community Hospital in Bohol website. I couldn't find it. Instead I came across this website, a site meant to help Filipinas find foreign husbands.I scanned the pictures and here are my favorites -- (I know, I know, I should...
Aug 11, 2008
Heaven
Heaven.Bryan Adams.This song has some significance. I was working and then it played over Yahoo Music LaunchCast and I began singing along with it and then I stopped.I have this nagging feeling that this song has significance to me.I think its a song from MY past.Now, if I only could remember --Da...
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