Love with No Fear

Fear sleeps but never dies out, I wish I was strong but I don't know how, Do you hear my restless heart? Out in the rain but it feels good, Will I crawl where I once stood, I am not safe out in the cold, But like a waterfall - I'm letting it all go, You could destroy my heart, But I want to know How it feels to fall down on my knees, Pray I'll keep you forever, And I want to say out of all my dreams, I found something better, Because I'm ready...

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After Watching It Takes a Man and a Woman

I had a great day. Seriously, a good one. I love days like this. Nothing really cataclysmic happened. I just saw a movie with my friends and had dinner with them. I absolutely loved the film. It had me laughing my ass off. It’s not even just giggling or smiling…I mean, laughing my.freakin’.ass.off. Knee-slapped-head-thrown-back kind of laugh.  The kind of laugh that would have you hitting your friend’s back. Because that was what I was doing...

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It’s a “Good” Friday.

I was having a bad moment earlier. Really bad. The kind of bad that would land me in an asylum. I didn’t want to put the kids to bed. I haven’t been feeling well all afternoon and I didn’t really have the patience for their bickering. It’s always constant bickering with the girls. Now, I know how my mother felt with me and my sister quarreling while growing up.  I’m echoing the same things she used to scream at us. Anyway, Riley was crying because Erbe left the room.  She’s papa’s girl and she likes to have him put her to bed.  Because...

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Words That Describe Me

Furious. Enraged. Confused. Angry. Mad. Depressed. Sad. Funny thing. I don’t know why. I just dumped Riley outside – literally dumped her. She was making me so mad. It was either that or I hit her. So, I picked her up and then just gave her to her father. My patience is in shreds. I feel like a volcano that’s about to erupt. I can’t blame it on hormones – or maybe I can. I don’t know. My sister once told me that I should consider estrogen therapy. It might help with my mood swings and volatile temperament. I thought estrogen therapy is for old...

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Bato Bato sa Langit

It has been years...get over it already. And tell her to get over it already. God. It's like I am in this freakin' roller coaster ride that never stops. Let me make this very, very clear. I DON'T GIVE A FLYING RAT'S ASS ABOUT YOU. I don't. No matter what you think or what she may think. I DON'T. Get over yourself. God, just get over yourself already. I really don't get it. No offense, but seriously... Seriously! I don't get it. A smile, a nod... it won't kill you people. We don't really have to do all...

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Ranting: Just Ignore

I feel like crap.My nose and throat itch like crazy.I sound like a frog when I talk.My husband just farted, and I feel like scalping his head off.I am so hungry ALL THE FVCKIN time.I have dry cough which wakes me up at night, so I haven't been sleeping well.Oh boy, am I having a grand time.yep, it's that time of the month.Sent from Samsung Mob...

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The First Time

We all have that – that one perfect moment. Looking back, you’d wish that you had the presence of mind to take stock and remember every perfect little detail. It’s that moment when you are exactly at the right place at the right time to meet that one person you will remember for the rest of your life. It doesn’t even matter if you end up with this person or not – only few are lucky to have that happy ending. I don’t know if you’ve had that...if...

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State Of Mind

Wretched soulDevoured by the OrdinaryBlissfully choosing to stay quiteTo stay stillAs if the void is enoughAs if the mindless incessant chatterReally drowns the wailing...the boredomThat drills through the skullCausing the bleedingSeeping through every poreOf a banal existence...So that's how she sees it,But she's wrong.The heart sees what regretscouldn't.What she couldn't.Devoid.Pathetic.Sick.Ungrateful.Bitch.That I am.Sent from Samsung Mob...

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Sunday Ritual

Every Sunday, Paige and I would try to stay in bed for as long as we can, and then while Erbe works and Riley sleeps, Paige would help me prepare breakfast, then we'd set up our breakfast in the balcony and we'd have our breakfast there. nothing fancy - just good food and a lot of talking and giggling.Afterwards, we'd watch a film I downloaded for her. Today, it's Wreck It Ralph. Ah, life. It's nothing glamorous, but it's a happy one. Have a great...

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