Revealing Secrets about Yourself

I came across this blog Beaman
and he had an entry where he revealed 7 Things About Himself


And finding this interesting I want to follow suit and if you read this perhaps you can send me a comment where you'd tell me at least three things people do not know about you.

So, here goes.

1. If we are not really close, you wouldn't know that I wrap my feet with mosquito net when I go to sleep. Now, you'd probably think that's weird but I'll have you know that 2 out of 10 people in this freaking country have the same affliction.

2. I love cartoons. I don't think I'll ever grow out of loving it. I seem to love Jimmy Neutron these days. Weird.

3. I love country music -- American country music, that is. The sappier, the better.

4. I am a Catholic but I question the doctrines. But I will not ever change my religion.

5. I believe I have failed the Bar Exams and I am just waiting for the results to confirm that, but I worry that I probably jinxed it by believing that I failed.

6. I don't want to regret my life. Period. So, I leave no room for thinking, "Do I regret my life?"

7. I am afraid to die but sometimes I think I'll die ahead of people I really love. Morbid thoughts.

Now, your turn.

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Why Tom Cruise is a Kook

I was curious about Scientology. I've always shrugged it off every time I'd read things about it. So, I finally decided to read where all those Alien Jokes were coming from.

And what I discovered?
Yeah, Tom Cruise deserves those alien cracks about him.

So, here are some of the beliefs I find really weird.
They believe that psychiatry and psychology are destructive. In fact, they blame almost all the wars in the world to psychiatry.

They believe that Xenu, the alien ruler of the Galactic Confederacy, dumped billions of people in volcanoes and blew them up. We have those people living inside us now. We have to remove them and spend $360,000 while doing so.

Delivery rooms should be as silent as possible. Easy for Hubbard to say. Nothing is as painful as labor. I wonder how Katie Holmes kept her trap shut?

Their disconnection policy in which members are encouraged to cut off ties from people who are antagonistic even with their families.

The Anderson Report which revealed that the auditing process (one-on-one communication with a Scientology counselor) involves hypnotizing the patient.

The Operation Snow White and equally frightening and weird Operation Freak Out

Heck. Almost all religions have their own kookiness and quirks. Catholics are being lambasted for their statues and all. In fact, if there are no historical basis for Jesus Christ, the whole idea would be probably weird.

But what gets to me is Xenu. WTF?! How the hell did Hubbard come up with that?! That's a pretty good theory though if you consider that theory that we came from Mars and all.

I wonder where the Dinosaurs came in and where were Adam and Eve when the blowing up of people happened?!

No wonder they think Tom Cruise is a kook. Poor Katie Holmes. Well, she's got millions of dollars to console herself being Mrs. Cruise. Poor Suri. She'll grow up to be Xenu believer.

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Waiting for the Bar Exams Results

Waiting is not easy.
It is a complete torture.
Like you're waiting for someone to give you your breath back.
Like waiting for the ax to fall -- this is how I feel right now.
Waiting for the inevitable.
Unfortunately, I feel like the inevitable would mean sour bitter taste in my mouth,
like ashes falling off from a dead dream.

I've been surfing around the net and have read few blogs about the bar exams. The authors have discussed their answers and they sound so freaking convincing that I feel like my answers were like series of babblings of a 4-year-old idiot.

They sound so convincing and I feel damned when their answers differ from mine.
Thoughts like, "Why the hell did I rush that Legal Ethics exam?"
or "Geeze! I gave the most stupid answers ever!"

Why the hell did I answer, "Yes, he showed improper conduct not befitting a lawyer/judge".
All I can remember is that I was having difficulty thinking of any legal basis for a negative answer, "No, his actions were not improper because -- well, it was his wife for pete's sakes!"

Sometimes, I get caught up with day-to-day activities and I sin. I curse at a driver. I speak a bad word. I miss a Sunday mass -- and I worry that I'd fail. I even had a bad dream where I couldn't find my name in the paper. That basically gave me an inkling about how devastated I'd be come April. Yes, I'm preparing myself for the bad news.

God! I hate waiting. It's pure torture. It's like someone has got a hard grip on my heart and wouldn't let go.

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12 Gifts of Christmas

Giving myself permission to drink a huge glass of hot chocolate on a cold December night with a plateful full of Chips Ahoy cookies beside me.

Allowing myself to enjoy the notoriously noisy carols of neighborhood kids who is out for a few bucks, the mangled and disarrayed Christmas lights, and other holiday touches that my sister spent huge bucks on last Christmas

Getting the complete collection of Sims 2 and all its expansions – now, that would be the nicest Christmas gift ever! And don’t forget the gift certificate for computer memory upgrade to accommodate the Sims 2 collection. This is a package deal.

Feeling more joyful this Christmas which is particularly difficult for me given the fact that I don’t like Christmas holidays because it’s depressing.

Getting a lot of chocolates from New Zealand (clearing my throat for Bes)

My family -- my parents and my very-far-away sister -- and the extended ones including all the dysfunctional, queer and relatively weird ones. They put up with me, spoil me even and provide the stability that I need.

The love and support of the friends that I see or talk to often and those that I don’t see or talk to anymore. Right Nette? Tin? Thank God for small favors like my good friend Ryan who gets pissed off that I don’t answer his overseas calls.

An end to a good year marked with my leap to an unknown, leaving other people to decide my fate and my dreams.

Serenity – knowing in the most real of wordless voices everything as I see or feel them is the way it should be. Even when I refuse to see it.

My husband and my daughter. No words suffice. They’re continued good health and presence equal countless gifts for eternity.

You. Just the fact that you’re reading this and that you’re taking some time out of your busy life to spend a moment here and maybe give a damn about all this – well, that’s a gift.

Lastly, knowing that all these do not have much to do with Christmas, but they are more of taking the time to recognize that I have so much to be grateful for in my life. That, my friend, is the biggest gift of all.

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In My Daughter's Eyes

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

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