8th Years

It wasn't easy. It isn't easy. But somehow we're doing just fine. I wanted to play with words. And write something impressive, but I don't feel like it. The truth is marriage is a nitty, gritty business. It takes a lot of hard work, and I supposed it'll be the same for the next 50 years. But we're doing it. We're committed to do the work. And that's what matters.  Love? Oh, love is there. It never left. It just grew stronger and...

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Doing the Right Thing

Doing the right thing… it’s not as easy as one would think. It sucks.  It definitely sucks. Especially when it means losing something that means so much to me… Giving up something that makes me happy – it’s not easy.  But it is something that I need to do.  It is something that I cannot afford to keep.  I can’t wait for the shit to hit the fan. Before the shit hits, I need to let it go.  But I don’t want to. God, I don’t...

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A Rainy Thursday

Apparently, this old woman was lying on those stairs for an hour, being beaten cold by the rain, before Paige and I saw her and called the police for help.I don't understand how people could look at her and continue on their merry way. The indifference is shocking.  This was last Thursd...

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Poison & Wine by The Civil Wars

"Poison & Wine" You only know what I want you to I know everything you don't want me to Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine You think your dreams are the same as mine Oh I don't love you but I always will Oh I don't love you but I always will Oh I don't love you but I always will I always will I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back The less I give the more I get back Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise I don't have a choice but I'd still choose you Oh I don't love you but I always will. I always will...

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Turbo Replay

I'm getting old. I used to think I'll never get tired of watching cartoons. Apparently, you tend to lose interest once you have kids. I am so tired of watching the same movie over and over again. I'm not sure how many times the girls have watched this fi...

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PMS

It's that time of the month again where EVERYTHING sucks. I feel sad for no reason. And I have a godfvkin awful temper. And everything and everyone irritates me. My hormones are all over the place. Shit. I took it out on my hair. I have bangs! Really short one like a 2-yr-old hacked the damn thing. Crap. ...

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The Tooth Fairy

  Paige lost another teeth.  And yes, we've been doing the whole Tooth Fairy routine.  Maybe someday, Paige will read my blog, so here we go, "Yes, baby, there is no Tooth Fairy. It was all just your crazy mother who has this insane need to create a bubble world for you where everything is sugar and spice, sweet and nice." Why do I do that? Why?! Why?!...

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The One That Got Away

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I am

excited. nervous. agitated. confused. regretful. pissed. frustrated. pressured. sad. hopeful. prayerful. determined. resigned. fucked up. Right now, rioting emotions are pulling me from all sides. My heart feels like it’s about to explode.  I know why. Of course, I know why. It’s just too much, so I needed to clear my mind. Thus, I blog. How have you been?...

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Musings of a Mediocre Writer

Sometimes, I still can't believe I get paid for writing. The longer the content, the higher the pay. And to think I just used to give people 25-page letters for nothing! Imagine how much that would have cost them now!It's amazing actually - to get paid for doing something I love to do, something I take for granted like breathing.And it all started the day I decided to start a journ...

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7 Years Old Now

My Paige is growing up so fast. I scroll through my old blog entries, and I'm amazed at the difference. It's actually quite amazing. She's 7 years old now. She still likes to sleep next to me. I dread the day she'd want to sleep in her own bed, and I know that it won't be that long before that happe...

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Goodnight Moon

I can't figure out which I like best - the original or this unplugged version. Nevertheless, I love this song....

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Ho Hey

I can't stop singing this song. Jesus. I love i...

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How to Get Rid of the Pacifier

After 3 years, we've had it with Riley's poop-poop (what she calls her pacifiers). We couldn't get her to stop, so we just went cold turkey.Oh, we didn't mean it to happen like that, but that's what happened. One night, we couldn't find any of her pacifiers, so she spent the whole night without one...and we forgot to get her a new one the next day, so another night went by without a pacifier. We didn't bother to get a new one after the second night....

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Don't Grow Up...Just Yet

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Because I Remember I Write

Sometimes, we remember moments when time seemingly stood still.  We all have that – memories that are so vivid that you could practically feel yourself reliving them over and over again every time you remember.  It’s almost like that movie Groundhog Day.  You live through every little detail, the colors, the sounds, the sights, the scents – and most specially “the feel”.  These are memories that have taken roots so deep they’ve embedded themselves into your very soul.  It’s like for that single second in your life, everything...

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In Love with "The Boss"

It started with Dancing in the Dark and then I started devouring Bruce Springsteen's YouTube videos one after another.Now, I have developed a huge lady music boner for this legend. I am in love with him and his mus...

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Some BS About My Hair

I don't know what's with me and long hair... I can't abide the darn thing for long. I usually ignore my hair, have it in a bun on top of my head until I eventually notice it has grown considerably long - and then I start itching to get it cut. The itch gets so intense that the only relief is to hack everything off - and no, I don't just cut a little inch here and there. I really get it hacked.  Yesterday, it was up to my back until I gave in...

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Here We Go Again

Yes, I am going to do th...

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Thy Will Be Done Lord?

I haven't prayed the rosary for a while...blame it on my questions about my religion, but I was feeling unsettled yesterday. I felt like I needed to pray long and hard and leave it all up to a Higher Power to sort everything out for me - and that's what I did. Not only did I pray the rosary but also went on to recite litanies.Afterwards, I felt a little peaceful. Not because I felt like God would grant my prayer but because I felt like He was in...

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The Crush Saga

I thought Paige's crush ended when she learned that her "crush" doesn't like her anymore. I was really happy about that. I rejoiced too soon. Last Saturday, after her Araw ng Wika, we went to McDonalds because she was invited to a birthday party.  After leaving her inside with their yaya, she suddenly came running outside the door and rushed outside the food joint.  Seeing that she was upset, I asked her what happened and she informed...

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The Story About the Devil

There are some stories that need to be told and recorded for all time...and I figured, blogging about this one particular story is a sure-fire way to do both. It's a story about Riley - my little hellion.  ...

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The World at My Feet

Earlier, Erbe saw an old photo album lying around downstairs. Turned out, it was my graduation photo album. I completely forgot about it. Looking at the photos was like looking at them the first time. So, I thought I'd upload some of my favorites here, so I'll have digital prints of them. ...

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Weird Sleeping Habits

So yeah, this is how I sleep. I always need to cover the upper portion of my head with a blanket. Pretty weird, huh?Actually, it all started when I moved out of the room I shared with my sister. After watching a scary movie or show like 6th Sense and Magandang Gabi Bayan November 1 episode, I get freakishly scared that I bury myself under the blanket. Unfortunately, this can be incredibly suffocating, so to avoid seeing the ghost, but still...

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Goodbye Girl

Tinay shared this video on our Facebook group page. She drew our notice to the comments section with her "Oh the stories shared on the comment section..."  So, I checked out the video and read the comments. The stories are so sad - one lost love after another. I read through them and felt my heart squeezing every now and then.  One person said, "I always think about him...I don't know why."  Another told her, "The only answer I could give you are soul mates. Time and space know boundary in terms of affection."  So,...

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In Threes

God, I'm so freaking furious. Life shits come in threes, so maybe that was my third.But I hope good news come in threes as well because we just had one.Yeah, that doesn't change the fact that I'm furious and that I feel bad.Crap. Crap. Cr...

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Status Update

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Guess Who... Or What?

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How I Divide My Time

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My Would-Be Tattoo

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Too Freaking Early

Early this evening, I was waiting for my turn in the bank. Paige sat next to me and started writing in a piece of paper. Curious, I took a peek and saw her writing her name and her crush's name, Zach and Paige.Again, I couldn't just freak out in front of her, so I didn't. But dear God, was I freaking out! Is that normal? I mean I read they have crushes at that age, but to actually doodle a crush's name?! Seriously, it's too early for the birds and...

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The Husband Joined a Photo Contest

For almost a week, I had to grit my teeth and bear with the huge embarrassment my husband was heaping on me. So, last week, I woke up early Monday morning and was greeted by my husband's huge grin and his, "I joined our photo in a contest ba!"  It took a second or so for the words "our photo" to register and then I panicked. You see, I hate photo contests. I hate having my photo bandied around anywhere. I hate the spotlight. I hate being...

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Suits Opening Credit

I love the opening credits of this show. God, I love this sho...

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That Summer

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Burgundy?!

For the life of me, Mommy woke up this morning and decided to have fun with Nana Viol's hair. She convinced Nana Viol that she'd look fabulous with burgundy-colored hair. What she calls burgundy I call "god-awful red". But my mother refused to listen. She's pretty devious. That's what she is. She wanted to see how the "burgundy" would look like before she uses the dye on her own hair. I believe she found out that I was right. The dye job was...

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Chikungunya

Now, imagine this scattered all over your body from head to toe and then combined this with swollen lymph nodes. The pain and itch is incredible. My eyelids are heavy. I'm incredibly sleepy. I am in pain. I am itchy and sleepy. I am miserable. Damn it. ...

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Wailin' and Teeth Gnashing

I hate this. God, I hate being sick. I become needy, weepy, whiny and all-round major bitch. I have all sorts of theories why I am sick, ranging from "my leg is infected inside and its festering beneath the skin" to "I think there was something wrong with the apple I ate earlier - yes, I know it was delicious but maybe there was some sort of virus in it." I have also pondered on the possibility that I have dengue or maybe I haven't taken a bath yet and I smell like shit, so I am getting sick. This theory was blown to   kingdom come...

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Deluge

This place never fails to bring forth a torrent of bittersweet memories. I spent 8  years of my life here. I built friendships here. I met some of the most amazingly unique people I know in this place - brilliant people who helped me discover things about myself that I didn't know. I became my own person here. I fell in love here - twice in fact! And 'tis here too that I had my heart broken. It's the same, but not the same every time I step...

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Define Happiness

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More Riley Moments

Me: Riley, hain ka?!?! Riley: Yaon po ako digdi ki Lita (referring to her Lola Lita) Riley singing: Ang lubot ni papa perpek. Ang lubot ni papa perpek. Me: Ba, nadangug mong sabi?? Riley continued: Ang bulay na mabata! Ang bulay na mabata! Me: Erbe!!!!! Sabi ko na kaya saimo dai ka magparasabing bulay!!...

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Big Foot

I detest, despise, abhor and hate my feet. They're big and ugly, incredibly ugly. I bet they look like Big Foot's feet.  In fact, I think his feet look dainty compared to mine. Yes, dainty! Big Foot will probably laugh his ass off if he'd see how dainty his feet look next to mine.  His feet will inspire odes and poems. Mine will inspire nightmares. I exaggerate but you get the drift, right? Ignore the picture, you should see the...

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I Swear

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Her First Crush

I was fixing Riley's hair and wasn't paying attention to Paige.  She was going on and on about something she wanted to tell me.  It was a little bit irritating, truth be told.  Finally, Riley's little tuft of hair was fixed, so I turned to Paige and said, "Okay, now tell me. What is it?" She smiled and said, "Mama, may crush daw ako kay Zack." She was smiling sheepishly, shyly... And I knew then that that was a big moment......

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Doing Her Little Magic Trick

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I'm Gonna Be

So, I can be such a geek.  I'd like to think that my taste in music is eclectic but alas, I would be lying. Because I abhor heavy metal. I can deal with rock, but no metal for me please. There was this one point in my life when I forced myself to listen to that crap, but that was when I deluded myself into thinking that I was in-love with an old boyfriend who was in a heavy metal band. He had the long hair and all. Fortunately, for me, the exes after that pretty much had good taste in music. So, I didn't have to listen to anything I...

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4:42

The sun is struggling to come out already, but i haven't slept yet. My body clock will have me waking up at 9 a.m. no matter what, and I'd be working with my eyes half closed. Damn those freakin' books. I have finished 5 novels over the weekend. Shit. I'm hooked again. Books are my personal marijuana, ecstasy and cocaine all rolled into one. I should hit the sack now. ...

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May 24, 2013

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Bookworm

Started reading books again - uh, ebooks to be accurate. I have tons of ebooks waiting to be read and I am not getting any reasonable amount of sleep. I am devouring books one after another. It's so exhausting but I've never been happier.  It gets depressing in the end though. I hate it everytime I get to the last page. I hate last pag...

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Sucky Four Days

Life has been phenomenally unpleasant the past four days. It all started with my father having a stroke. That was seriously  scary. He was slurring his r's and I was really scared, imagining all sorts of crazy things.This was followed by the missing Philhealth receipts and the unreflected Philhealth payments which had me practically screaming at the people at SM's business center. I was accusing the supervisor of "havin' no heart".This was topped...

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Sarong Banggi Cover by Cori :)

Isn't my niece just adorable? My mother hasn't gotten around to teaching her the rest of the song, but you have to admit, she's just awesome - like her aunt. :...

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Thank You Cori.

I came across this video I took of Paige yesterday and I was awestruck by how much she has grown. Time is really passing by so fast. Fairly soon, she'd be all grown up. And she won't be this little girl who cries when she couldn't sleep beside me, holds my hand when she sleeps and tells me how much she loves me every day.  Just now she told me she doesn't want to go to sleep yet because I still have a lot of things to do and she wants to stay awake so she could help me out.  I wish she'd stay that way forever and ever, but someday...

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Blackout + Scourging Summer Heat

Summer of 2013. Because we couldn't take the heat anymore after hours of being cooped up inside the house - bearing with the sweltering heat, the kids and I "chilled" on the rooftop. :) &nbs...

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Excerpts from The Book of Awesome

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Sweet As Whole

Thoroughly enjoyed this song. I’m a fan of Sara Bareilles and this is the most awesome – and graceful -  way to throw the middle finger.  ...

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