First WEDDING Anniversary

Ba,I would like to thank you…For the adobo you cook (my favorite dish of all)For the bachoy in the morning and the sliced bread for breakfastFor irritating the hell out of me with your farts, which seems to give me brain freezesFor the late night talksFor the quarrels…oh, geeze! The quarrels. They say that when two people loves each other passionately, they would quarrel with as much passion… Well, I think we pass that description.For our little...

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Oh Happy Day!

We just received a wonderful news and I am happy!What's the news? My hubby is okay and we have...umm...60 or so years to be together.Merry Christmas to all of you!!!And may the new year be a year where your heart's prayer will be answered.Merry Christmas to those far away from me, especially to...1. Bes2. Rarye.3. Muni4. Lonlon5. To all those who reads this and I do not know that they do.This is my bullshit new years resolution:1. I will learn to...

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the sound of bells...again

China is getting married...Bon voyage girlfriend.CONFESSION: I am happy that you have found your happiness, but still there is that little part of me wishing that you will be walking in the aisle with "him" beside you...but as I always say...Cest la v...

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ala -- just ala.

She fascinates me.Not in a homosexual way, okay. (Although I have nothing against homosexuals, they are fine with me as they have the right to breathe as well).Ala Paredes fascinates me.She has the face that women loves (if they don't actually hate it). And she has that certain air -- that I-don't-give-a-shit air.But I liked her more when I started reading her blog and found out that she is actually pretty intelligent and talented. I guess the fascination...

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my confessed selfishness

Sometimes, I am selfish.I am damn selfish.It has been weeks since Reming deemed it a duty to wipe out Albay from the map. We were in Lagonoy when that happened. Erbe was busy sleeping and my daughter was fussing and crying, while I was worrying myself to early grave. It was utterly scary. I now know how Noah feels while waiting for the storm to pass... it was just for like 8 hours or so, imagine 40 days and 40 nights, and with elephants tooting their...

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peaceful in lagonoy

Erbe has been posted in Goa for a 2-week teaching stint and we are staying in Lagonoy.I still love to look at Mt. Isarog as much as i loved to look at it when I first traveled to Nato with the fellows for an overnight swimming (Although I did not stay for the night).I noticed that Lagonoy is not so far from naga after all...I noticed that I could be a small-town girl.Except when McDonalds beckons... he...

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love ko to!

at this very moment...this is what I am dreaming ...

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Looking at the opposite side of the mirror

Like everyone else, I rooted myself to the tube today waiting for "The Fight". I suffered the scared and irritating efforts of the Hawaiian Punch while waiting for the BIG FIGHT. Hawaiian Punch? Hah! Why was he even there when all he did was wait for the punches to come! It was really, really painful to watch him and extremely irritating. It was boring which made the hype and anticipation for the Pacquiao-Morales fight more real as I knew that would...

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the faces of ikay

and she grows...and she makes us proud...

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Rye! Just giving you the UPDATE

I discovered something about me.Contrary to Tinay's feelings.I discover I love teaching.It's actually pretty fun.Ikay is growing up pretty fast now. She's going four months old now and she is Mama's "mutya". She's looking more and more like me, only prettier. She looks nothing like her papa, which is fine with Erbe. Because he loves her to the point of I think he is going to spoil her. He can't bear to hear her cry or even whimper!!! But nobody can...

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She's the Bomb!

I watched Oprah on Studio 23 the other night. The topic was about sexual predators.And oprah was giving out $100,000 reward money to anyone who could point out these monsters to the FBI. It was rewarding watching these predators being captured. I couldn't imagine how I'd feel if any of those twisted predators come in contact with my daughter. Probably commit bloody murder. I wonder how much Oprah would give for my capture?Nah...I'd bet she'd reward...

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For people who shares my husband's illness...

It never fails to break my heart whenever I see my husband suffering from his illness. It never fails to break my heart to know that there will always be people who would not understand and whose little minds make this illness something so difficult for my husband to reconcile with. It never fails to break my heart to know that at the end of the day, it will be me and ONLY me to whom my husband could go to for comfort and for consolation. It never...

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Erbe, Dragons, and the Confused Wife

Erbe has accused me of not having enough belief in him.But in my head, I figured that its not about having enough belief but just knowing the limits.I was wrong. I should have never put limits in my husband's capabilities as God never intended to limit him."A wife can give her husband that confidence (just as, hopefully, a husband can for his wife). It's not about being the supportive "little woman." It's about realizing that despite their veneer...

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remembering the Ex

Yesterday, I was sitting inside the car, holding Ikay, trying to fend off the mosquitoes swarming around us while we waited for Erbe to finish his grocery.The airconditioning was down and the heat was stifling.It was dusk... Ikay was asleep and I was looking at her...and looking and looking...And suddenly, it struck me, "This little girl is what my life was all about..."My life cumulates to that moment -- I was a mother and I was holding my little...

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Erbe's amazing patience

This is one of the million reasons I LOVE H...

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It made me laugh

Hello!!! I actually thought that my blog was just being religiously read by two person -- rarye and Bes. Not even Erbe actually bothers to read it. So my blasphemies are safe...YET. Until he finally deems it worthy enough to be read. So whenever people would suddenly say something like, "Nabasa ko sa blog mo." Surprise! Surprise! Kuya Vic and Ate Che wrote me a message via Friendster. Kuya Vic actually gave me a sentimental message about Inay when he saw her pic in one of my posts. It was funny that when I posted my new blog address in friendster,...

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I WAS CALLED A BITCH

loser Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. Hello!!! I looked for my blog via Google and to my surprise it came out and it was because somebody who loves Pacquiao called me a "bitch" for my post on Manny. (Try it by the way, type "piebuko" and you'd come across it)It was funny. hehe. What was funny about it? I didn't know somebody reads my blog and that a post of mine could generate that hatred! Damn! I'm freakin' good! Okay, in fairness, I...

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just a note

Ba,Sometimes I want to bloody scalp your head off...Pero kalbo ka na eh!We still have a loooooooooooooooong way to go.Until all we have is our two front teeth.You can be the most stubborn man alive but I love y...

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watching my baby sleep

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A letter to my daughter

Ikay,Life holds too many surprises and before I lose the chance to do so, I want to teach you some things I’ve learned in life…First, learn to live your life without regrets. Living with regrets, wishing to change things you can’t change only drags you down.Learn to find the little wonderful things in life – they are what matter most.Learn to dream big and believe the vastness of heavens and the depths of the oceans are not enough to encompass all...

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separation anxiety

I understand mothers experience separation anxiety...But mine is unique.Her name is Edith. I honestly, sincerely likes her. She works really hard and without complaint that my mother loves her. And no, she has not just come down from the Isarog mountains.Guess what? She takes care of my baby when I'm not at home.Now, tell me.. honestly...just honestly... do you think I have to worry...

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there i go again..

I really am such a klutz.Today, we formally launched the medical transcription course our company is offering, in partnership with WRI.There were a lot of guests...The ex-vice mayor, city councilors, people from TESDA and DTI, media people and a lot of important guests...And I came in pants a tad smaller for me (blame it on my pregnancy fat) and take note with a hole in the ass area. geeze! I wanted to come wearing slacks but nothing fits and those...

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life and bitches

people would either hate you..or love you...You could never please everyone as always...there would be who would be those who'd find you lacking...The fucked up thing though is that there are people who would stabbed you when your back is turn while all the while pretending to be the nice bitches that they are...Some would find so many reasons to hate you but forget that they have more fucked up skeletons in their closets.In my life, therefore, I've...

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my sister says...

this is how my daughter would be like 7 years from now...

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Oh! Beautiful Life!

I have a good life... I am so blessed. I have a husband who drives me nuts everyday and who have his faults and yes, he is not perfect but he loves me. UNCONDITIONALLY AND COMPLETELY. Because of that, I am blessed. He forgives me for all my shortcomings and my screw-ups. I have a family who is very supportive, a mother who still treats me like her baby and Dad who still treats me like his little girl, and a sister who just understands where my sense...

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Lolo popsie made her a swing

Erbe and I work on some files at night, so Mommy takes on Ikay for the night, and being the Kix Palabs that she is, she cries through the night when she is put down, so you'd find mommy dancing on the top of the bed or singing at 4 in the morning...By the way, where is my sister through all this?Well, after doing the damage, she refuses to take care of Paige at night.The other night, Mama was almost in tears, being very sleepy while Paige continues...

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She is the CULPRIT!

my little girl is an addict.Addict to "PALABS"She likes to be cuddled, cooed, and be rocked to sleep.Mama is putting up another chicken grill and would like to call it "Cheska's Lechon Manok" in honor of her grandchild, but we are suggesting that she calls it, "Kix Palabs".Ikay could put up hell at night. One night, she didn't sleep from 2 am to 6 am, which really drove me nuts and Erbe and I had a huge fight from the sheer exhaustion. She just...

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Adora, oh! Adora!

and she loves this soap...But I will let you in a little secret...I adore this soap as well...hehe... I mean, I actually stop playing sims or anything I'd be doing just so I can watch the soap.When I was having Paige, the one thing I kept lamenting about is missing the soap for da...

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Poor Emilio

This is mommy...commiserating with the fate of emilio in bituing walang ningning..she really looks funny here...but if i could be half the woman and the mother she is, i'd die happy. :)...

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Raid!

REPORT ON THE FORNICATION SHACKI have been informed by a reliable source -- my mother!-- that the fornication shack has been raided!Apparently, the good people of Mabolo, concerned about the welfare of the freakin' fornicating teenagers reported the activities to the authority and the shack has been raided.It is now closed. Eternally...

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The House of Orgy

I am in a need of a helper.. so mama got me one.or at least for a day. A kind neighbor took it upon herself to help out this young 15-year-old girl, Monica, get away from the depravation of living together with her sister. It would have been great if her sister is a grown-up, fully capable of supporting her and not pregnant and living in an orgy sanctuary. Nah... actually the elder sister lives with her boyfriend in a shack, together with three other couples. All they do is have sex! And they are barely 16 years old!!! Everybody in the neighborhood...

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paige and her papa

paige and papa Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. And she is loved by us..by her papa..deeply.unconditionally.and We are weaving great dreams for her.And I want to conquer the world for her, while Her Papa wants to lay the world at her feet.She is our daughterand she is lov...

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The PLEASURES OF EVE

For the last few months, I have been researching on Lamaze techniques, studying and reading everything I could get my hands to in preparation for my labor and for the big day. There were number of times even that I quarreled with Erbe because of his - what seems to me - lack of interest in studying the Lamaze notes along with me. So, it is quite ironic that on the BIG day…I did not go into labor.Nope. I did not.I woke up that day and I felt some...

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now, i'm also a mom..

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This and That

I have been married for months now and I am an expectant mother and handling some major responsibilities… I realized that in the process I am learning a lot of things –I am learning that I might be bossy, demanding and a person who just wouldn’t let anybody get the last word – but for my hubby, I am to make an exception.That I am not the head of the family… I am the heart of it.I learned that my mama loves me to distraction and would give her life for me – because that is what I feel for Paige.I learned that Daddy must have been really excited...

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the humor of mama

Erbe and I went to dinner at my parent's house and mama cooked a very special meal. It was Bituing Walang Ningning in the tube so I decided to get some food and eat in the living room. I was getting my dinner and I noticed the veggie in mama's dish. Me: "Ma, ano pong gulay yan?" Ma: "Halat..." Then I heard her humming. Barely discernible. So I turned and listened... "Bahay kubo.. kahit munti..." It was so funny, her humming so seriously that I started laughing. She suddenly shouted, "Singkamas!" *sigh.. my funny mama. by the way, Mrs. Sixteen,...

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Awww...c'mon!

Okay. He moves fast and granted he can really make a mess out of his opponent's poor face, but do we really need to call him a freakin' hero?! For god's sake! Poor Jose Rizal and Andres Bonifacio, they had to have themselves shot before they became a hero.. and those poor martyrs! But Pacquaio just have to beat up somebody's face to a pulp and be called a friggin' hero. And yeah, he has millions on the side as well. He has all the freakin' commercials,...

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my angel

paige 3Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. See?! Her nose got a ridge! Told yah! it is just big!Isn't she cute?...

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my baby

paige 2Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. here she kinda looks like me, h...

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Papa's little girl

paige 1Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. ...with his nose.. I insist!Or is it mi...

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for your information

I have been trying to think of something to write about. I mean, anyone who is reading my blog and trying to update himself with my life would be possibly vomiting by now with my entries on paige and my eternal lamentations about my freakingly huge weight. For your information, I am now 77 freakin' kilos! And guess what, Paige weighs 5.2 kilos, so basically, I am like 72 freakin' kilos!!! My depression about that is not abated by my hubby's plans...

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Von voyage

We have our own lives now...Married, we are.Missus.. Mrs.. that's what we are. And we have taken a new surname..new family name..Mrs. Cruz, Mrs. Arcilla, Mrs. Lim, the one who refused to be a Missus, and the one longing to be one...All following in the footsteps of a friend who became a bride earlier than all of us... Mrs. Crescini...Sometimes, I would look back to the school girls that we once were.. ponytails, crushes, giggles and all and wonder...

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Cord coil

I went to have an ultrasound which I thought would be my last until I deliver Paige...Unfortunately, I was wrong.Apparently, Paige has a cord coil around her neck so I have to see again before delivery if she still has it.Because if she does... it's cesarean delivery for me, which I totally don't want.I guess, it's all up to God...

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The lamentations of a hippopotamus

I have lamented quite a bit.. no! a lot about my pregnancy weight. I hate my weight and it doesn't help when your husband is such an insensitive clod.ADVICE TO PROSPECTIVE HUSBANDS: Do not call your wife chubby when she feels like a freaking hippopotamus!!!I went to my OB last week and after she subjected me to Leopold maneuver... I sat there and she started writing some stuffs down about my visit and she casually said, "No more vitamins for you."...

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"Ever The Same" (For Settie)

We were drawn from the weedsWe were brave like soldiersFalling down under the pale moonlightYou were holding to meLike a someone brokenAnd I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you nowJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on meTell me everything you want me to beForever with you forever in meEver the sameWe would stand in the windWe were free like waterFlowing downUnder the warmth of the sunNow...

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Whimsy...

I miss these people -1. Bobet and Pipo - for their crazy antics and for making me laugh a little bit more everytime I am with them.2. Bessie - because I don't know any girl/woman/lady who is kinder than her.3. Settie - because I just miss talking to her. We haven't been able to for a long time. Life doesn't allow it.4. Tin and Che - because they are like old blankets, warm and familiar.5. Balon - for his idealistic and almost naive views of women...

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the memoirs of a cow..no! a hippo..

I feel like a lumbering humongous cow.Well, people kept telling me to “slow down”, “move slowly”, “act like a lady for God’s sake!” Well, that is because prior to this period where I have to move slow because I relatively have no choice, I was happily moving like I wasn’t carrying anything inside my stomach. Now, I feel like a cow that has to be craned to be able to move! Sometimes, Erbe has to literally pull me off the bed. Yeah, it’s not like I’m...

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The advantages of Being Gifted

Deer Sir,I waunt to apply for the secritary job what I saw in the paper.I can Type real quik wit one finggar and do sum a counting.I think I am good on the phone and no I am a pepole person, Pepole really seam to respond to me well.I?m lookin for a Jobb as a secritary but it musent be to complicaited.I no my spelling is not to good but find that I Offen can get a job thru my persinalety .My salerery is open so we can discus wat you want to pay me...

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Ikay, my baby

tummyOriginally uploaded by Silhoutte. I have a baby girl!!!and she has erbe's nose.. or so i think. We had a 3D pic of her and she has a pretty large nose like her papa.. hehehe..Lucky for her, she doesn't have the nose of her mama. :)I am going to name her Paige Francesca.. in honor of my books, the Charm One, and my Inay, whose name was Francisca. Of course, i would not saddle "Francisca" on my baby so I decided to name her Francesca, kinda with...

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I dont feel bad about getting fat when katie holmes looks like this...

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without sleeping

joy 012Originally uploaded by Silhoutte. WORK. This is what keeps me from playing sims to my hearts' content and from having quality time with my hubby... sorry bab...

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my current addiction

simsOriginally uploaded by Silhoutte. I think settie is mad at me.. I can't blame her. I am a horrible excuse for a friend. I am up to my neck with work and I have no time to do anything else. What do I do?1. I work.2. Sleep for like 3-5 hours (which is bad for little Paige, I know.)3. Play SIMS. I am an addict on that freakin' game.anyways,It's tough and really scary, doing business.. Sometimes u get screwed up by people (Thanks Anthony Paul!) and...

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My drama with Shingles

Wha-at?!? Chickenpox?!Not chickenpox to be exact but the recurrence of it – Shigles!I have it. Who would have thought of anything as bizarre as a virus living deep inside you and waiting for the right moment.. the exact moment when all your defenses are down and attack once again!!!It freakin’ hurts like hell and itch! Geeze! Does it itch!And I am supposed to drink some medications that would prevent the hellish pain that would come just after the...

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