for the one who finally learned what is it all about though not quite all..

you were wrong.i won't have qualms about saying that. You should have anticipated that u'd get hurt..and u'd be left picking up the pieces, crying ur eyes out (are u?) while willing ur heart to stop hurting..and i know u know that it was a risk..but u know what? if it was a risk worth taking, then it was worth it.if for a minute u felt that u were happy beyond anything, though it was a fleeting happiness, be damn glad that u were! Because some people...

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the aftermath

and i was wearing a red dress.. bloody red, in fact. and i thought i looked okay although erbe was going on about how pretty he thinks i looked! Of course, he'd say that, he has freaking astigmatism! (i wonder if that affects his eyesight as much as his heart does..) so there i was sitting as u may well pleased.. and i was told i was going to be the commentator of the mass! and then suddenly i looked bloody horrible in erbe's eyes! he kept saying, "dapat na ka make up ka!" "dapat nakapaayos kang buhok!" hello?! what happened to "you are sooooo...

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i asked for it.

lately, my emotions have been totally screwed up.the truth about this though is that i have been told that i am screwing it up.when u love, u want to be love completely..and u don't want to be told that "if someone had a choice, he'd rather spend the rest of his life with somebody else.."how do u tell urself not to hurt when the hurt has taken root, so deep that it's not easy to unearthed it?how do u tell urself to trust that the next words u'd hear...

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I..

I want to be able to dance like no one's watching, even if someone was.I want to run alone through the streets of Paris in the rain wearing a yellow raincoat two sizes too big.I want to be mentally, emotionally and spiritually independent and self-reliant in every way possible.I also want to be held and I want it to feel like a pale cool fire upon my skin.I want to create at least one work in any medium that will outlast me and reach into other souls...

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bitches should just die.

it has been 9 months to be exact.she started her sickness from the very start.the year has turned, she still can't get it through her screwed-up head that she lost.Besides there was never a competition to begin with.What would u do if ur boyfriend's ex still is so hang-up with him?she harasses u.she follows u around.she has u investigated.she approaches u in the streets to diss u.ur boyfriend has told her to fuck off, but she just can't get it.she's probably just too dumb, huh?Old stupid pathetic bitch.SCREW YOU BITCH!!!*sorry i am just so furious....

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the day mama watched the pigs

I would rather that i am still nursing on my mother's breast..yes, i do. growing old is tough. i don't know how everyone who is way older than me deals with all the responsibilities that goes along with growing up.. one of those responsibilities is worrying about my mama's health.. it would have been easy, if mama is different.Two days ago, my mama was just diagnosed with heart enlargement.(Enough with the "i'm so sorry about that"!)my mama is a...

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happy birthday chody!

And this one is a tribute to my baby..who right now is messing with my hair. hmp! well, this kinda calls for it because it is his birthday.. okay fine, i know, i know it is so lame to write something about ur boyfriend, so i won't go for the icky stuff.. i will just tell u about him, so perhaps, u wouldn't think that all he does is be darn serious and write stuffs about the end of the world or sumthin'.. we've been together for not quite a long time,but for those who have been in relationships which did not last longer than the number of the...

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my blahs..

what do u do when ur boyfriend's sis and bro does not like u?hmmm.. scream, " Oh! who bloody cares?!" nah.. the bf would go into an apoplexy if u do.. what about crying ur bloody eyes out and then break up with the bf? hey! i did that! geeze.. was i pathetic or was i pathetic?she doesn't like me, and she hasn't met me yet.he doesn't like me, and he barely even talked to me when we met.no justice.and i am a law student.tsk. tsk. tsk. oh! the irony...

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